One Way Ride.

From exactly this moment on to the rest, I have a destination, and a road to this destination. I will stay on this road, no matter what happens. Know this. And please do keep in mind, things happen. Alllllll sorts of things happen on this road. There are cracks and fractures. There are signs. There will be curves and turns-- maybe even u turns. There is traffic. There are hitch-hikers. There is roadkill. Cracks, because no road is perfect. Fractures, because a road can only take so much. Signs, to tell me how to get to where I'm going; different signs, different ways to get there, different stops along the way. Curves, because I won't always be able to see straight ahead; some things will come up unexpected. U-turns, because I am changing. I may even make complete turnarounds in some ways; more than I already have. Hitch-hikers, there are people who join the journey; some for much longer than others. Roadkill, because there will be mistakes made along the drive; mistakes that can't be fixed. Also because there will be people who get hurt in this journey; some people you can help and make things better with; this is not those people. Sometime you have to grieve, let go, and go on. The road is long. I just hope I won't be riding solo by the time I reach my destination..

Where Did My Baby Go?

Inspiration. She has left me cold dry and alone for longer than I'd like =( and I know exactly what the problem is; my thought process.

When I AM inspired and I get ideas, they all come in AT ONCE. And by the time I can sift through the clutter, i've managed to pull out 2 or 3 out of the 6 I had. I forget all the others =( this has to stop somehow..I think I need to spend more time with my camera. I've been neglecting her a little lately and there's no doubt I don't have the drive for photography like I did when I first started. I used to be allll over the books & websites just filling the empty spaces with knowledge on the whole subject..but it's ok, I can feel it picking back up little by little. I just need to learn how to sort out my ideas as they come instead of letting it all build up.

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Witness the madness vv

My brain, filled with ideas. Yeah no exaggeration here.

A couple ideas are pulled from the chaos

Now look back at the first picture. So much potential seen in the clutter, with such little results.

Maybe that's just the way it's supposed to be? Maybe I'm just asking too much of myself.

Eh.

Either way, I'm striving to better myself and get more out of myself and stop saying myself so much in one paragraph. Just takes a little dedication. Yes I made those pictures in photoshop^. Crap I know, but it got the message across. Lol

Winter.

I can't wait for the winter time. It brings out the best in me in ways other people would usually identify as the worst in a person.

Some people see the winter in a person as cold, dry, dead; things like that. At the same time though, there are people that see it as a time of warmth, or getting together and being close to the people you love; Everyone has their own take on it. I love it for multiple reasons; it inspires me. I've had some of my best and worst memories made in the winter time; First love, first time, it's when I got my first camera, right when I dove into the world of photography; it will always remind me to be at my best and learn to do new things, or to improve in the ways needed.

My art in the winter is 10x its normal output. I'm not even completely sure why lol. I love black & white photography above all, and I always associate the winter time with black & white. Everything is just so beautiful..the trees, the dead grass, the cold; snow if we have it. It just says so much to you if you look at it long enough, and what a better way to study & indulge yourself in the moment than taking a picture of it? Winter just makes me contemplate everything; it's just a super chill time (no pun intended) and i'm a naturally chill dude, so everything just works.

These are some of my favorite pictures taken December-Feb. last year:

And toe. toe takes me there no matter what season it is. What is toe you ask? [ educate yourself. ]

Epic Collisions.

One of the most amazing things in this world to me is when two epic minds/people/personalities come into contact with each other-- whether they're working together, or against one another in any way. Whether the results are insanely catastrophic, or beautifully majestic; the whole thing is just an amazing thing to witness or experience for those who notice.

When two people's ideas can connect, relate, clash, and compliment each other in all aspects of conversation, it feels too good. To have someone on your level, no matter what that may be, is a rare thing indeed. It's almost impossible not to enjoy in some way everything you go through with that person.

For example; maybe it's me, but just as I would enjoy the good conversation and exchange of thoughts and ideas with a person on my level, I would equally enjoy a fight or argument; more like a debate I guess. Don't get me wrong, I don't like to fight with anyone, especially the people I love; but I couln't help but enjoy debating with someone that was just as legit in their points as I was.

The same goes for loving someone. Imagine loving someone who loves as hard as you do; someone who shares the same capacity for caring and understanding as you-- and I say the same, with the thought in mind that you are giving your all.
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Someone on your level, in all aspects..someone who compliments you, relates to you, challenges you..
All the while helping you grow. That, is truly amazing.

Get up.

[ If you're down, get up
If you're out, get in
If you're off, get on
If it's broken, fix it
If it's lost, find it
If you want it, get it
If you believe in it, live it
If you love it, hold it
If you hate it, loathe it ]

These are all things that have been swirling around in my mind for the past month-- nothing could keep me so motivated and sure about things; and I have you to thank.